Monotone

When how I speak

is nothing like how I write or think,

it's embarrassing.

Someone told me

my spoken tone makes it seem

as though I'm always at

the last place I want to be.

I found it: true, funny, frustrating...

How does an internal monologue of contemplative elation

grow up,

slide down,

brain stem to mouth,

and come out

impatient?